*sigh*

Stress sucks. Literally. It sucks the energy from your body, the happiness from your soul, the will to fight from your life... It just sucks in general.

For me stress comes mostly from myself. I stress over, about adn around just about everything - but i have to think it to death first. Its a little retarded to most of the world and annoying to those same people as well. which I get in a sense but it still sucks to feel like your thoughts, feelings and concerns are being laughed off or brushed aside as "silly" just because the other person doesnt agree with your veiwpoint.

I'm tired of crying. It seems to be all I'm doing lately - stressing myself to the point I want to throw up and crying. Over so many things - mostly over my own neurotic worries, I guess.

When do you know you've thought too much? Or have taken things to far? How do you know its time to stop stressing, worrying, wondering and comparing the past to the present?

Im tired of being the neurotic over-thinking fearful bunny rabbit of a wimp. The bold girl who reached for what she wanted has been buried so long under thick layers of fear and hate that I'm unsure if she even exists anymore. I miss her some days.

Maybe its time for a long heart-to-heart with myself. Maybe its time to stop running away and start running TO...
*happiness
*hope
*what i want
*my dreams

Then just take hold and hang on.

Now if only I can find the courage. Anyone have some for sale?...